"Battle within" - as a 28 year old
Started my day, trying to go for a walk. Snoozing my alarms, when one of the many alarms I have set up gets to me and successfully convinces me to wake up. Scrolling through twitter trying to find a purpose. I push myself to go for a walk. You start going deep into the surface level thoughts on a walk. Today's walk was a battle between Dharma vs purpose. Is my dharma my purpose? What is my purpose? What should I be focusing on? I am on a constant drum roll of ideas of things to work on. It is very difficult to just pick one and start working on it. Maybe I am thinking too much. As I age, I wonder if I should have taken these risks earlier. I am aware that there is no point thinking about the past and we can only think about future which creates anxiety. It is best to be in present. The people who preach this ask me when I would get married. It's the duality of human beings, right? Now I am extremely confused as to what my next step should be. The only thing I currently have wi...